Speechless

Never in my life i encounter with "             ",

its a whole new of a new experience that i felt,

now i realise how a "                 " feel when this happen.
But what past is past and can never return,, even if it does it'll still be the same.

I'm not blaming anybody for this MAJOR misdemeanor that i've done,, because its me and its all me that created every single undesired scenes and tragedy.

Its hurting to see "               " handling this problems, nevertheless this problems should settle in a calm manner and not anger because anger will only worsen the situation instead of getting control over it.

I'm Sorry,, i'm sorry for everything...  i know i've destroyed the trust you have given us and due to that,, i'll do anything to correct my mistakes and prove that i am capable of leading my life till i succeed and get what i want when i get my " Segulung Ijazah".

I will REMEMBER what you told me,, and i'll come back when i'm ready.

Those words will never fade inside my small mind,, webbed inside and never  erased.

Your words were harsh,, harsh enough to wake me up from boy's dream and ur words were too mean to describe my wrongdoings,, however they wont make me fall but strengthen my courage to get what longed to be mine forever.

Never in my life i've heard such words from "                   " and now i finally see the other sides of them.

Its not about how well we can control our emotions,, but how well we manage them and tell ourselves its not the end but a rocky part of a journey.

  I understand to a certain point, emotions overthrowed us mentally n physically, dont use that as a reason to make unreasonable blames and harangue till there's no tomorrow.

A mistake will remain as a mistake,, but how we try to correct the mistake that counts although the mistake is not erasable

Dont worry baby,, we'll always together(: